Wednesday, August 20, 2008

'Tis the Last Rose of Summer

I think the hardest and also the most wonderful part of the summer was watching all of my best friends get married. Now that all the weddings are over with I thought I would just post some feelings about the events.

They were all very beautiful weddings and marriages to wonderful guys. I approve of them all and I feel like they really do bring out the best in my friends. Its hard to watch all of your friends find someone to care about more than you, not to say that they cared about me most. But no matter how much they still love me, I am down on the totem pole now. Its the way it is, and the way it should be.

Elise and Jeff are pretty much inseparable. And although I sometimes seem annoyed when Elise says something like "Ah, I just can't wait to be with Jeff again.", its really because I want that too. Not with Jeff mind you (ha), just with someone. I really love how Elise can bring out Jeff's crazy side, and Jeff has a way of toning down Elise's temperament when needed. They went through a lot of emotional challenges to get to marriage (extended leaves of absence) and I think that makes their relationship stronger. You know they love each other and are ecstatic to spend eternity together. I am VERY grateful they still play with me though. :)

Now Nicole and Garrett are a bit different story- but not too different. He was made for her. We knew it would take a special person to understand Nicole's personality and our sense of humors, and she found him! They have such similar personalities, which in some cases doesn't work. But it does! Their relationship is the cutest, and you can really tell that they are in love.

All in all I would have to say it was definitely a mixed feeling kind of summer. I feel quite alone (except for the BFF spot Drew filled this summer. Thanks Drew :)) and sad that I don't really have anyone to be that close to. Its unfortunately my biggest weakness and strength. I am fiercely loyal, but it often times leaves me feeling hurt. I thought of a poem I know to describe it. The first part goes like this:

'Tis the last rose of summer
left blooming and gone
all her lovely companions are faded and done

No flower of her kindred
no rosebud is nigh

To reflect back her blushes
or give sigh for sigh.

Those are my feelings, however varied they are. Mostly I am happy my best friends found awesome eternal companions that are perfect for them, and I have never seen them happier. So I guess lets just see what happens for me next summer....

Friday, August 1, 2008

American Idol Auditions

Alright, so I tried out. And to cut to the chase, I didn't make it. BUT we did make lost of lasting memories and got an inside scoop into the whole process of auditioning. I am not going to write more than this or post any pictures because my friend Drew took all the pictures and also wrote about it better than I could. So click here to check out his post! Feel free to comment here though.